from up here the city lights burn like a thousand miles of fire.

playlist
despondent, distracted
you're vicious and romantic;
these are a few of my favorite things.

all of those flavors and this is what you choose:
past the blues,past the blues,
and on to something new.

something real, make it timeless,
an act of God and nothing less will be accepted.
so if you're calling me out,
then count me out.

yeah, we're stubborn and melodramatic,
a real class act.
you see, i know a few of your favorite things.

five in the morning,
it all comes out pouring,
Love, out the same way in.

something real, make it timeless,
an act of God and nothing else will be accepted.
I said "real, make it timeless,
an act of God and nothing less will be accepted. "
now if you're calling me out,
then count me out.

divine intervention
taking back sunday

Sunday, August 20, 2006

new day.

this weekend i've learn that you could be happy letting go. maybe theres no point lookin back in anger cause it would only torture myself to torture you. it has been a long two years for me and tonight i just wanna say three cheers to a new tommorow.

¶ 10:42 pm

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

numb

today, for the first time i walked away. i walked away from a potentially dangerous situation that could have made me snap. maybe because i'm becomin more numb and i've seen through you.

i've seen through someone that takes a month to heal and get over a life changing and damagin relationship that you feel tainted coming out of.
your so hurt and broken you can love again.
you cried day after day to wake up one day and realize 'hey! someones so nice to me so he's good for me, i don hurt no more?.'

you said live up to your first impression.
my best side was your worst invention.
why cant you live without the attention?
why cant you live without the attention?

i laughed coldly at the sight i saw. i didnt feel angry or sad no more. all i felt was total stupidity because i put myself thru the guilt and pain just like you wanted it. dont worry lush you got what you wanted cause i'm just as devastated and broken like you now. i'll take a good hard look at the scars when the wounds heal cause it will always remind me of you, my immense love and antogonising hate.

¶ 10:41 pm

Sunday, August 06, 2006

i really do not fucking know what i do wrong so someone please fill me in. it seems everywhere i turn everywhere i step i thread on someone toes. why cant people jus fuckin understand some things and why cant people jus see taht i'm like anyone else that i'm capable of makin mistakes too. oh and you know how i wished someone would jus come and take me away from here.

¶ 9:58 pm

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

tonight

move along she said.
its all over and i want out.

now that theres nothing left.
this place is fucking dead and she moves out.

so now here i am.
left with my cigarettes and alcohol
and those dusty pictures on the wall.

and no you dont know what its like.
and no you'll never know how i feel.
cause all i see now its memories of you
and the jigsaw of us shattered on the floor.

and once again you make me eat my words to be fine.
and once again with the little things i always undermined.

¶ 9:18 pm